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11:22 – 11:11 444 555 777

Friday, September 11th, 2009

I periodically see messages on various Internet dicussion forums on the subject of numerical sequences popping up into their life. Often this is the 11:11, or 1111, 1234, 12:12, 444, 222, etc. This has happened to me a great deal and I’ve had a lot of time to think about it. The message below is my response to individuals experiencing similar things. I am refining this as I go.

Although I can not give you specific answers, for those lie within you, I thought that I could at least share something that may help.

Similar to your 222, the pattern, 1122, had followed me around off and on for about a year or so; however, I was unable to discern a potential connection until last November.

Last year, near election day 2008 I had a sort of gut feeling to go to the store which required walking about half a mile. On the trip, I KNEW that something was coming – a message as it were. I can’t explain how, but it was that sense of knowing that something was about to happen. I went and bought some grape juice and then stopped by the voting center. My thoughts centered on karma / abortion as I was contemplating the various options for voting. I found out I was unable to vote in the local election, but was able to vote in the national election. I then headed out back the way I came still pondering secondary and tertiary karmic implications of various decisions one could make in an act as simple as voting. A train horn blared and soon the train had arrived. As often occurs in life, I was forced to stop and observe.

As the train passed, I was studying the graffiti. Towards the end of the train, a car came by with the number 1122 painted on it. Suddenly I KNEW what I was here for had been delivered. This car was immediately by another car with big letters saying KARMA. In a bit of mental recall, suddenly the events of the last year replayed in my head and I had noted that there often seemed to be key decisions coming up or opportunities to “turn the other cheek” and invoke positive karma or to take the road more traveled and invoke negative karma whenever the sequence 1122 would pop up again. Unfortunately, I wasn’t aware of such laws until only recently 🙂

Most of this occurs for me in the external – not the internal. The only time I recall something happening in the internal was I in sort of “peaced out” state of mind early in my quest / seeking and was at the time sort of talking to myself in my head – I think. I had asked a question of a pseudo internal “oracle” and was trying to distinguish between talking to myself, vs. the possibility that I may actually be hearing what is sometimes called the still small voice, what is called a guide or an angel, or perhaps it was just a stray dis incarnate spirit messing with me, or if I was really lucky – maybe dialogue from my higher self. Pick your poison.

Anyway – I asked a question and received an answer that was rather specific.

I asked to verify the authenticity of this message to make sure I wasn’t just talking to myself and as such issued a challenge question to verify. My challenge question was “In what year was Kennedy assassinated?” It was a question that the answer was not present in my conscious mind, though I’m sure I would have read the date of that at some point in my life so it would have been in there somewhere -I just wouldn’t have been able to pull it up in a million years. Stated another way, it wasn’t a year that I just happened to know off the top off my head – much less the date. I went and looked it up.

Chills went up my back when I found out that he was shot on 11/22 1963. I then looked up more information and later found out that the Kennedy story could be tied to the Lincoln assassination and how eerily close the details were. Granted, they could have been making “the pieces fit”, but still these two assassinations do look eerily similar. The message of Kennedy and Lincoln seems to be what I may call a karmic loop – sort of like a bad episode of Star Trek where they are too near a disruption in the space time continuum or that movie Groundhog Day. The way I understand it, someone has to turn the other cheek eventually in order for the loop to stop.

For me then, the meaning in both the external and the internal 1122 for me would be an indication that a karmic decision is approaching – be on guard – be prepared to absorb some darkness, followed by light if one makes the right decision. However, given that I have yet to make it into “spirit” and converse with any entities I would consider reliable, this could still very well be a guess and I have read differing reports as to the meaning of such things.

Ultimately, the point of my message is that perhaps you could try similar techniques and test procedures to arrive at your own conclusion instead of relying on someone else. There are a variety of support groups out there for this sort of thing that like to reference channeled entities and such, but over time I’ve found them lacking and inconsistent. Just like with dreams, perhaps sometimes it is just you manifesting things as part of a mental game and other times it is an actual message -and a dream dictionary is probably going to be just as worthless for your dreams as am “Angelic Numbers” book would be for this in your situation. 

Keeping a journal may assist you with deciphering some of this. Of course, there is that nasty habit of the Universe always adapting and changing that may make this game a bit more challenging.

I hope some of this helped.



Happy Passover

Thursday, April 9th, 2009

Well, today is a very special day for me for a number of reasons. One of them is that it is Passover. It is a time of passing over into life and a celebration of my life today.

About this time last year, I celebrated it in a very special way with two homeless individuals and a pastor friend of mine.  A year later, one homeless dude is working and has an apartment. The other is working, but not quite self-sufficient just yet. My my how much can change in a year. Some things have changed with me as well.

This year I lead up to Passover by cleansing.

I fasted for a few days leading up to Passover to do a really really good detox. I had a major headache on the 2nd day even after doing the required enemas and such to empty the bowels of toxin. It took until the 4th day before my body was done flushing toxins this time around. I’d say I need to avoid processed cheese a bit better, I guess my body is still pretty dirty from years of cigarette smoke, processed foods, and McDonalds. It was a wonder I could even remember my dreams. I also went through and did a review of the Exodus story and connected it to the Last Supper as told in the New Testament. It is amazing how different it is each time I read it with more experience and age under my belt. Different things I didn’t notice before.

Another thing I did was to clean out closet, my house a bit, and to clean the back yard. Man it felt good to do that. I wonder why? Have you ever wondered why?

The feeling that we get when we clean is there by design i think. The cleaning activities are put into the scriptures for a reason, but all too often those basic simple things are ignored and replaced with mounds of tradition, easter eggs, and whatever else until the point is lost. I’ve since learned that there are a variety of other traditions that use house cleaning as a way of cleaning out the mind. Edgar Cayce recommended that one’s prayer area be cleaned before meditating and praying. The physical being an illusion, or actually an allusion to something greater, in that the part of us that we see in the physical is not unlike the part of the iceberg seen on the surface of the ocean.

I also worked on cleansing out some artifacts in my mind. Some resentments here and there.

The cleaning has allowed some of my perceptions of things to change as well I think. A year ago, I figured celebrate Passover, but I really wasn’t quite sure why other than the Bible says to from what I can tell. There are different perspectives on Passover, indeed, my own has grown and evolved. Around the world, gajillions of Christians are getting ready to celebrate Easter and it has barely crossed my mind. I remember it being so “taboo” to even say the word Passover last year. It freaks some Christians out for some reason,  particularly my wife. The perception of it though is what is interesting.

For many, Passover = Jewish. They can not get around it. It triggers an association in their mind that has been placed in there by a couple thousand years of tradition. It triggers a certain aversion. For others, it is welcomed. I have no idea why (actually i do, but am not going there just yet), but I had to be careful last year due to the taboo nature of the mental association. It would be sort of like naming one’s child Beezelebub or something equivalent. The kid could be the nicest kid on the planet, but would still go through hell for having a name like that.

I’ve also learned that the measure that we judge others will be brought right back on us. Fortunately, as I have grown spiritually, that part seems to come faster. I do something I shouldn’t. Whammo… get delivered a judgment.

Think of it like this. Once you become aware of Karma, or the law that says that as a man sows, so shall he reap, there is no longer any need to hide that spiritual law. It needs to remain hidden while you are yet asleep, otherwise your doing of right may not be “honest” but rather, for fear of retribution from the law.  If we are all but children on this planet, and God is trying to raise us up – he would probably want us to do things for the right reason – not because of fear of receiving the sometimes negative fruits of our own judgements.  I would want the same out of my children, so perhaps this applies to higher things as well. Thus the law of karma would have to remain hidden until we were ready to become aware of it. Basically, whenever you judge someone or are fail to act appropriately, those things come back on you so that you get to experience what it was like.

As part of karmic retribution, I was pretty silly about celebration of certain holidays about 2 years ago. Pardon the seemingly inflammatory expression, but I was “jewing” them up (did that trigger anything within you?), that is, becoming a bit too draconian and losing the forest through the trees. A year later I have learned that like Judas was to Jesus, we must kill our inner Jew – that part of us that wants to attach rules and regulations without bound to everything and without understanding why. There is a time for such things; however, as we grow we must come to understand why things are, how they work, etc. In as much as there are moral and other lessons provided by the Bible, it also provides a map of our minds, a map of the laws of how this places works, and how to have a good marriage, both with the Son of God, and your earthly wife. These things are under the surface and can not be seen by most at first is what I have learned.

Let’s try a small example though, the Beast discussed in Revelation is just as much a part of our own mind, but people prefer to focus on some external “prophetic” event or other such things rather than work on what is inside. I know, because I was one of them. Like Paul, walking around pointing fingers as described in the book of Acts, it seems that the first part of the journey is doing exactly that. At some point, the seeker’s eyes become opened to another source of light and they may begin to turn inward.

So while learning Karmic stuff, about two years ago I was getting judgemental on some of the holidays even Passover, but part of my heart felt like there was no reason to be judgemental about it, but celebrate it anyway and not get all snooty. I did as best I could with that. Since then,  I’ve learned is to celebrate other holidays with people because there is a higher law at work – that is – it would be better to be with your family, than to make a stink about Easter being pagan or whatever. The fact is, it IS Pagan – this is indisuputable. This is FACT, but a fact that many are not ready for due to the perceptions and mental filters they have grown up with, refusal to question things, to seek things out, etc. That includes me at points in my life.

Passover – the first full moon after the spring equinox! It is a halfway point between summer and winter and as such provide great opportunity and potential to become “reborn”. I don’t mean the silly self-declared emotional reborn like I myself did not even two years ago, but the level to which one becomes imbued, becomes like a virgin as pure as the driven snow – allowing for the Son of God to be born of you. I’ve found that the half-way point between day and night is an optimum point for mediation as it blends the female and male energies within us. In a similar level, so is Passover but it is like a big cosmic boost.

What does the word Passover trigger in you? Does it invoke fear? To me, it trigger Joy – a celebratory time for passing over into LIFE!

So celebrate your Easter eggs and your lent just like they did for ol’ Tammuz and the various sun gods across the planet. More power to you and those that you love, but why not celebrate Passover while you are at it and maybe one day, instead!

While I’m on the subject here is sort of a lay out of the things I prepared for Passover.

Curried Lentils with Spinach and Carrots




w Chocolate Dipping Sauce!


Here is the whole line up!


Had a little bit of “kosher” wine and 1 Guiness beer.

Scientific Proof of Reincarnation?

Wednesday, March 11th, 2009

Scientific Proof of Reincarnation
Dr. Ian Stevenson’s Life Work

“Either he [Dr. Stevenson] is making a colossal mistake. Or he will be known as the Galileo of the 20th century.” Dr Harold Lief in the Journal of Nervous and Mental Disease

Probably the best known, if not most respected, collection of scientific data that appears to provide scientific proof that reincarnation is real, is the life’s work of Dr. Ian Stevenson. Instead of relying on hypnosis to verify that an individual has had a previous life, he instead chose to collect thousands of cases of children who spontaneously (without hypnosis) remember a past life. Dr. Ian Stevenson uses this approach because spontaneous past life memories in a child can be investigated using strict scientific protocols. Hypnosis, while useful in researching into past lives, is less reliable from a purely scientific perspective. In order to collect his data, Dr. Stevenson methodically documents the child’s statements of a previous life. Then he identifies the deceased person the child remembers being, and verifies the facts of the deceased person’s life that match the child’s memory. He even matches birthmarks and birth defects to wounds and scars on the deceased, verified by medical records. His strict methods systematically rule out all possible “normal” explanations for the child’s memories.

Dr. Stevenson has devoted the last forty years to the scientific documentation of past life memories of children from all over the world. He has over 3000 cases in his files. Many people, including skeptics and scholars, agree that these cases offer the best evidence yet for reincarnation.

Dr. Stevenson’s credentials are impeccable. He is a medical doctor and had many scholarly papers to his credit before he began paranormal research. He is the former head of the Department of Psychiatry at the University of Virginia, and now is Director of the Division of Personality Studies at the University of Virginia.

In order to help the reader become familiar with Dr. Stevenson’s work, a 1988 Omni Magazine Interview is reprinted below. Following is a summary of one of Dr. Stevenson’s most famous cases.


Sweet Swarnlata’s Story

The story of Swarnlata is characteristic of Stevenson’s cases: the young girl’s memories began when she was 3, she gave enough information to enable Stevenson to locate the family of the deceased person she remembered (the case was “solved”), and she gave more than 50 specific facts that were verified. But Swarnlata’s case was also different from most because her memories did not fade. And this is a sweet case, characterized by love and happy memories rather than by violent death and struggles between castes and families, like in so many other cases.

Swarnlata Mishra was born to an intellectual and prosperous family in Pradesh in India in 1948. When she was just three years old and traveling with her father past the town of Katni more than 100 miles from her home, she suddenly pointed and asked the driver to turn down a road to “my house”, and suggested they could get a better cup of tea there than they could on the road.

Soon after, she related more details of her life in Katni, all of which were written down by her father. She said her name was Biya Pathak, and that she had two sons. She gave details of the house: it was white with black doors fitted with iron bars; four rooms were stuccoed, but other parts were less finished; the front floor was of stone slabs. She located the house in Zhurkutia, a district of Katni; behind the house was a girl’s school, in front was a railway line, and lime furnaces were visible from the house. She added that the family had a motor car (a very rare item in India in the 1950’s, and especially before Swarnlata was born). Swarnlata said Biya died of a “pain in her throat”, and was treated by Dr. S. C. Bhabrat in Jabalpur. She also remembered an incident at a wedding when she and a friend had difficulty finding a latrine.

In the spring of 1959, when Swarnlata was 10 years old, news of the case reached Professor Sri H. N. Banerjee, an Indian researcher of paranormal phenomenon and colleague of Stevenson. Banerjee took the notes her father made and traveled to Katni to determine if Swarnlata’s memories could be verified.

Using nothing more than the description that Swarnlata had given, he found the house–despite the house having been enlarged and improved since 1939 when Biya died. It belonged to the Pathak’s (a common name in India), a wealthy, prominent family, with extensive business interests. The lime furnaces were on land adjoining the property; the girls school was 100 yards behind the Pathak’s property, but not visible from the front.

He interviewed the family and verified everything Swarnlata had said. Biya Pathak had died in 1939 leaving behind a grieving husband, two young sons, and many younger brothers. These Pathaks had never heard of the Mishra family, who lived a hundred miles away; the Mishra’s had no knowledge of the Pathak family.

The next scene in this story sounds like a plot from Agatha Christie, but is all true, extracted from the Stevenson’s tabulations in Swarnlata’s published case. In the summer of 1959, Biya’s husband, son, and eldest brother journeyed to the town of Chhatarpur, the town where Swarnlata now lived, to test Swarnlata’s memory. They did not reveal their identities or purpose to others in the town, but enlisted nine townsmen to accompany them to the Mishar home, where they arrived unannounced.

Swarnlata immediately recognized her brother and called him “Babu”, Biya’s pet name for him. Stevenson gives only the barest facts, but I can imagine the emotions ran high at this point. Imagine how Babu felt to be recognized immediately by his dead sister reborn.

Ten-year-old Swarnlata went around the room looking at each man in turn; some she identified as men she knew from her town, some were strangers to her. Then she came to Sri Chintamini Pandey, Biya’s husband. Swarnlata lowered her eyes, looked bashful–as Hindu wives do in the presence of their husbands–and spoke his name. Stevenson says nothing of Sri Pandey’s reaction at finding his wife after twenty years

Swarnlata also correctly identified her son from her past life, Murli, who was 13 years old when Biya died. But Murli schemed to mislead her, and “for almost twenty-four hours insisted against her objections that he was not Murli, but someone else.” Murli had also brought along a friend and tried to mislead Swarnlata once again by insisting he was Naresh, Biya’s other son, who was about the same age as this friend. Swarnlata insisted just as strongly that he was a stranger.

Finally, Swarnlata reminded Sri Pandey that he had purloined 1200 rupees Biya kept in a box. Sri Pandey admitted to the truth of this private fact that only he and his wife had known.

Gold Fillings

A few weeks later, Swarnlata’s father took her to Katni to visit the home and town where Biya lived and died.

Upon arriving she immediately noticed and remarked about the changes to the house. She asked about the parapet at the back of the house, a verandah, and the neem tree that used to grow in the compound; all had been removed since Biya’s death. She identified Biya’s room and the room in which she had died. She recognized one of Biya’s brothers and correctly identified him as her second brother. She did the same for her third and fourth brother, the wife of the younger brother, the son of the second brother (calling him by his pet name “Baboo”), a close friend of the family’s (correctly commenting that he was now wearing spectacles, which he in fact had acquired since Biya had died) and his wife (calling her by her pet name “Bhoujai”), Biya’s sister-in-law–all with appropriate emotions of weeping and nervous laughter. She also correctly identified a former servant, an old betelnut seller, and the family cowherd (despite her youngest brother’s attempt to test Swarnlata by insisting that the cowherd had died).

Later, Swarnlata was presented to a room full of strangers and asked whom she recognized. She correctly picked out her husband’s cousin, the wife of Biya’s brother-in-law, and a midwife–whom she identified not by her current name, but by a name she had used when Biya was alive. Biya’s son Murli, in another test, introduced Swarnlata to a man he called a new friend, Bhola. Swarnlata insisted correctly that this man was actually Biya’s second son, Naresh. In another test, Biya’s youngest brother tried to trap Swarnlata by saying that Biya had lost her teeth; Swarnlata did not fall for this, and went on to say that Biya had gold fillings in her front teeth–a fact that the brothers had forgotten and were forced to confirm by consulting with their wives, who reminded them that what Swarnlata said was true.

This must have been a spectacle. Here was a ten-year-old stranger from far away–so far, in terms of Indian culture, that her dialect was distinctly different than that of the Pathaks–who acted confidently like an older sister of the household, was familiar with intimate names and family secrets, and remembered even marriage relationships, old servants, and friends. Just as amazing, her memory was frozen at the time of Biya’s death; Swarnlata knew nothing about the Pathak family that had happened since 1939.

In the following years, Swarnlata visited the Pathak family at regular intervals. Stevenson investigated the case in 1961, witnessing one of these visits. He observed the loving relationship between Swarnlata and the other members of the family. They all accepted her as Biya reborn.

Swarnlata behaved appropriately reserved towards Biya’s elders, but when alone with Biya’s sons, she was relaxed and playful as a mother would be–behavior that would otherwise be totally inappropriate in India for a 10-year-old girl in the company of unrelated men in their mid-thirties.

The Pathak brothers and Swarnlata observed the Hindu custom of Rakhi, in which brothers and sisters annually renew their devotion to each other by exchanging gifts. In fact the Pathak brothers were distressed and angry one year when Swarnlata missed the ceremony; they felt that because she had lived with them for 40 years and with the Mishras for only 10 years that they had a greater claim on her. As evidence of how strongly the Pathaks believed that Swarnlata was their Biya, they admitted that they had changed their views of reincarnation upon meeting Swarnlata and accepting her as Biya reborn (the Pathaks, because of their status and wealth, emulated Western ideas and had not believed in reincarnation before this happened). Swarnlata’s father, Sri Mishra, also accepted the truth of Swarnlata’s past identity: years later, when it came time for Swarnlata to marry he consulted with the Pathaks about the choice of a husband for her.

How did Swarnlata feel about all of this? Was it confusing for her to remember so completely the life of a grown woman? Stevenson visited her in later years and corresponded with her for ten years after this case was investigated. He reports that she grew up normally, received an advanced degree in botany, and got married. She said that sometimes, when she reminisced about her happy life in Katni, her eyes brimmed with tears and, for a moment, she wished she could return to the wealth and life of Biya. But her loyalty to the Mishra family was undivided and, except for the regular visits to Katni, she went about the business of growing into a beautiful young woman, accepting fully her station in this life.

In some ways Swarnlata is typical of Stevenson’s cases: the amazing number of facts and people she remembered; the positive identification of the previous personality, the exchange of visits between the families, and the age at which she first had her memories. What is not typical, however, is the persistence of clear memories into her adulthood, the lack of a traumatic death, and the support and cooperation between the families (in most cases one or both of the families are reluctant to encourage the child or to bring the case to the outside world). This is a sweet case that illustrates what profoundly enriching human experience a past life memory can bring about.

But many of the cases in Stevenson’s books are stories where love and miraculous reunions mix with conflict, violent death, and hostile emotions. The cases of Ravi Shankar [Chapter 6 in Children’s Past Lives] and Titu Singh illustrate the darker side of life that is often brought to the light when a child has a forceful past life memory.

Copyright 1997 by Carol Bowman and Steve Bowman
Reprinted with Permission

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Lucid Dreaming – Vitamins

Monday, February 9th, 2009

About a year ago, as I started down the path of attempting to clean my house spiritually speaking, part of it included exploring various scriptures that seem to go unnoticed by various folks in the Christian realm.

For example:

  • Ecclesiastes 12:6
Remember your Creator before the silver cord is snapped, the golden bowl is broken, the pitcher is smashed near the spring, and the water wheel is broken at the cistern.
  • 2 Cor 12:2-4 (KJV)
2 I knew a man in Christ above fourteen years ago, (whether in the body, I cannot tell; or whether out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth;) such an one caught up to the third heaven. 3 And I knew such a man, (whether in the body, or out of the body, I cannot tell: God knoweth;) 4 How that he was caught up into paradise, and heard unspeakable words, which it is not lawful for a man to utter.
  • I John 2:27
As for you, the anointing which you received from God abides in you, and you have no need for anyone to teach you; but as God’s anointing teaches you about all things, and is true and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you abide in God.
  • 3 Nephi 28:15 of the Book of Mormon
15 And whether they were in the body or out of the body, they could not tell; for it did seem unto them like a transfiguration of them, that they were changed from this body of flesh into an immortal state, that they could behold the things of God.

These are definitely a bit out there and probably have something to do with what is termed astral travel, lucid dreaming, etc. now a days.

I’ve had a few lucid dreams and seemingly out of body experience over the course of my life, but as usual never really knew what triggered it. Most of the time it seems to have been a function of just the right amount of being tired.

Mind you – Lucid Dreaming is just opening – newbie stuff. Stated another way, I caution you – astral travel / OBE has nothing to do with the inner kingdom that Yeshua was describing. At least that is what my sources tell me.

Back to Lucid Dreaming.

Another author had described certain vitamin supplements that can help.

Excerpted from:

I am constantly looking for new ways to increase my ability to reach lucidity. Anyone who knows about lucid dreaming, know that it takes a lot of practice to get it right. After reading this thread at the forum on LD4All, — snip

In the beginning I was a little anxious about the high dose of B-vitamin. However, I have seen no signs of side effects. I am sure it makes it easier for me reach lucidity, this being placebo or not. However, I am sure that such a high dose of one specific vitamin is unhealthy for my body, which is why a break is necessary. But I am definitely going to try this again, sometime in the future.

The author of the above article seems to have had some luck with B6. On my two most recent lucid dreams about 6 weeks ago, the factors were:

  • Heat – it was warm and cozy.
  • Got up a bit and walked around then laid back down around 7AM – the dreams occurred at 9AM ish.
  • Took a salt bath the night before around 1-2 AM
  • I’m on a vegetarian diet. I had been eating cheese enchiladas once in awhile. I had cut out all cheese enchiladas for fear that there might be chicken broth in the mix somehow.
  • Had placed an amethyst crystal near my bed.
  • Had started taking a few additional vitamins including something called DMEA.
  • Ate spinach with risotta cheese, sun dried tomatoes the night before.
  • Ate whole wheat spaghetti with heart healthy sauce the night before.
  • I was eating lots of cottage cheese at the time.
  • Was eating lots of spinach then anyway

Was there extra B6 in this diet? Not that I’m aware of – well maybe in the cottage cheese.

I am now in the habit of remembering my dreams mostly every night, though the depth and lucidity of the dream does seem to vary. Some of the things I have done to achieve this to compensate for the laziness factor when it comes to record the dreams. It is 3AM – you want to go back to sleep right? Well, at least I do. So I have used a pad right next to my bed or a tape recorder. While is great, I’m still trying to figure out how to become lucid.

For now, I am still experimenting. I suspect that the body may adjust to receiving new vitamin input and thus the effect may go down after some time. So I am thinking of adjusting my daily and nightly vitamin cocktail to have a “bye week”.  This may include additional “folic acid”.

From what I have read so far, one should try not to have a heavy meal as this requires too much energy during the night – thus removing possibilities for lucid dreams. However, that was not my experience. It was a fairly sizable meal the night before, yet I was hungry when I went to bed because it was spinach and pasta.

My personal research continues……..

Critical Spark of Intelligence Mass

Saturday, September 20th, 2008

Okay, so this may seem wacky, but I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that the same place that God came from may have an analogy in this dimension or realm or whatever it is that we live in.

You ever watched a campfire that has gone out? The wind may stir for a bit and blow on the hot coals. Then suddenly, ignition occurs – flames jump out of nowhere.

What about nucleur reactions. A mass of plutonium or uranium or whatever is sitting there all nice and happy. Doesn’t really seem to do a whole lot until just the right amount of additional neutrons are added to the mix – perhaps a catalyst , and then boom – 200,000 lives extinguished.

I’m left wondering is there is a similar phenomenon within the realm of intelligence? For example, could there be a pile of trillions upon quadrillions of circuits, that could eventually reach “awareness”. Sort of a mandelbrot set of awareness within our dimension. Sort of like that old story about a guy dreaming that he was dreaming and woke up within his dream? If you don’t get that, perhaps watch the movie Existenz or Jacob’s Ladder.


Thursday, August 14th, 2008

So I’ve put in several requests at for Reiki healing of my wife and hopefully restoration of our marriage and family. I’ve also been altering my prayers to be more visual in nature. I imagine us laying in bed together, on the beach as a family, putting her clothes back into our closet, etc and the emotions it generates. This comes forth from Mark 11:22.

Anyway, the last two-three weeks have been rough, but it may be getting better.

Also, got a tarot card reading and it basically said that we would fight for a bit, that she has someone else in the way, but it was God’s will for us to be together. I decided to start learning Reiki healing whatever that means and to focus on being the best man that I can be even more.

Someone told me recently that my relationship with my wife reflects my relationship with the Creator. Yeah, I know me and the Creator like to argue sometimes, but I didn’t think it was that bad – though it does make sense.

The trouble with these sort of things is that it is difficult to identify the source of the healing as she starts to act nicer.

Transmigration of the Soul and Woman’s Health

Thursday, August 14th, 2008

I had a thought come to me the other day. It is a possible explanation as to why women tend to live longer than men. So here’s the thing – I have a sneaking suspicion that women typically marry men older than them. This may or may not be true, but from what I’ve read at least in more ancient accounts it was true.

So let’s say the idea of transmigration of souls is reality. It makes sense to me, but I’ve never been able to prove the truth within myself just yet, so it is purely intellectual at this point.

Anyway, if women tend to live longer than men and the natural tendency is for women and men who are married to remain locked into a karma loop until they both live out the divine pattern of man, woman, and child in harmony – then it would not be surprising for the man to die first so that he can then be re-implanted into a new body and given a couple years to grow before woman does the same.

I suspect that couples that actually have broken free of the karma loop are those that die within a couple days or months of each other.

This is all just a guess.

Our World is an Allegory

Saturday, May 31st, 2008

What if… just what if… the world that we live in, that is, in the physical sense, is actually one big allegory for the inner struggle within our souls to find the reason for our existence?

For example, the destruction of the Temple in 70 AD, though a very real historical event, at the same time captures what happens as part of the inner struggle within our souls when we ignore the teachings of Yeshua in the Way?

The Jews, and Judas both looking for a physical manifestation of the Kingdom, yet Jesus indicated that it was within. Modern day Christianity looking for a physical return of Jesus – the same thing the Jews were looking for, just stated in a different way. He who has eyes to see, let him see.  It gets really deep here. What if there is to be a physical return of the Messiah, but that also is a mere physical allegory for that which occurs within our souls.

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