Archive for April, 2009

Day 2 – Master Cleanse

Thursday, April 30th, 2009

So I skipped a write up for days 2 and 3.

Day 2 – 220 lbs

Mild headache.
The salt solution worked quite nicely. Rather violent I might add during eliminations.

Day 3 – 218 lbs

Headaches have gone.

Salt solution broke. I think I didn’t add enough salt.

Drank a lot of water.
Didn’t have a whole lot of interest in the lemonade.
Forgot to use cayenne.

Day 4 (today) 215lbs when I woke up.

Salt solution worked for the most part. Gross, but yellow yucky looking stuff.
Back on to Cayenne.
Went to McDonald’s tonight with my kids. Maintained control – no icecream or fries for me 🙂

Winding down on Day 4, I’m about to have the herbal tea stuff before bed.
I’m feeling rather proud of the self. Yay self. The self is looking to itself for approval now.

What is in store for Day 5 ? I only have 7 more days left to get the minimum 12 days in.

Day 1 – Master Cleanse

Monday, April 27th, 2009

I had written a couple posts back that I was contemplating the “Master Cleanse” fast. I started it this morning. Yesterday evening I had spinach and butternut squash soup for dinner, so eliminations should not be too problematic. Weighed 223lbs starting this morning after urination.

The recipe is simple:

2TBsp lemon juice
2TBsp maple syrup (grade B preferably)
a bit of cayenne.
10 oz. water.

I’m using distilled water for now.



The finished product:


There is also a “sea salt” colon cleanse that one one can do each morning. I plan to start that tomorrow morning.

1 Quart warm water
2 teaspoons sea salt

Again, I am going to use distilled.

I’ve been having some pretty vivid dreams still, but nothing as vivid as the most vivid dream I ever had.

Warm Fuzzies

Thursday, April 23rd, 2009

“The person who, being really on the Way, falls upon hard times in the world, will not, as a consequence, turn to that friend or thing that offers him refuge and comfort and encourages their old self to survive. Rather, he will seek out someone who will faithfully and inexorably help him to risk himself, so that he may endure the difficulty and pass courageously through it. Only to the extent that a person exposes himself over and over again to annihilation, can that which is indestructible be found within them. In this daring lies dignity and the spirit of true awakening.” – Zen teacher Kalfried von Durkheim

Shadow of the next World

Wednesday, April 15th, 2009

 Quoting the online article:

“Shadows live in a simple world. They glide effortlessly across any sort of surface, oblivious to the higher dimension of space in which 3-D bodies move, collide and sometimes block the paths of rays of light.

Shadows have no idea how important that third dimension is, and how objects in it endow those very shadows with their quasi-physical existence. Indeed, the laws of shadow physics all depend on the third dimension’s presence. And just as the clueless inhabitants of the shadow world require an extra dimension to explain how they exist and interact, reality for humans may also depend on an invisible dimension or dimensions unknown.”

Sound familiar?

Master Cleansing Contemplation

Monday, April 13th, 2009

As part of my fast leading up to Passover I had gotten down to about 216-220lbs. Yay. Quite exciting. At my maximum weight almost three to four years ago I had weighed 250lbs. Holy Cow, fat man!

My doctor had told me I need to be about 180lbs, so I guess I have about another 40lbs to go. The trouble is, even after switching to vegetarian diet and walking and exercising, I still wasn’t losing all that much weight. It may have been all the oranges I was eating. When I was at around 235 lbs, I tried something called the “red light” therapy. I would basically hold a red lamp and point it at my solar plexus for about 30 minutes, while listening to marching music. I ate nothing but red or orange food for about 3 – 4 weeks. I dropped 10lbs fairly quickly, but once I started going back to normal food, my weight loss halted.

My most recent fast in preparation for Passover brought me down to 218-220lbs. I seem to be holding weight at 220lbs.

For my next trick, I am thinking of doing the “Master Cleanse” fast. This is basically lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper. They say that you can lose up to 2lbs a day on this fast and can go as long as 40 days because most of the vitamins and minerals are provided by the lemons and maple syrup. This may be my next step in my efforts to reset my metabolism and no longer be a bigger fellow.

I’ll have to wait until after the Feast of Unleavened Bread is complete to do this one though. I am actually getting excited about fasting. Weirdo.

Happy Passover

Thursday, April 9th, 2009

Well, today is a very special day for me for a number of reasons. One of them is that it is Passover. It is a time of passing over into life and a celebration of my life today.

About this time last year, I celebrated it in a very special way with two homeless individuals and a pastor friend of mine.  A year later, one homeless dude is working and has an apartment. The other is working, but not quite self-sufficient just yet. My my how much can change in a year. Some things have changed with me as well.

This year I lead up to Passover by cleansing.

I fasted for a few days leading up to Passover to do a really really good detox. I had a major headache on the 2nd day even after doing the required enemas and such to empty the bowels of toxin. It took until the 4th day before my body was done flushing toxins this time around. I’d say I need to avoid processed cheese a bit better, I guess my body is still pretty dirty from years of cigarette smoke, processed foods, and McDonalds. It was a wonder I could even remember my dreams. I also went through and did a review of the Exodus story and connected it to the Last Supper as told in the New Testament. It is amazing how different it is each time I read it with more experience and age under my belt. Different things I didn’t notice before.

Another thing I did was to clean out closet, my house a bit, and to clean the back yard. Man it felt good to do that. I wonder why? Have you ever wondered why?

The feeling that we get when we clean is there by design i think. The cleaning activities are put into the scriptures for a reason, but all too often those basic simple things are ignored and replaced with mounds of tradition, easter eggs, and whatever else until the point is lost. I’ve since learned that there are a variety of other traditions that use house cleaning as a way of cleaning out the mind. Edgar Cayce recommended that one’s prayer area be cleaned before meditating and praying. The physical being an illusion, or actually an allusion to something greater, in that the part of us that we see in the physical is not unlike the part of the iceberg seen on the surface of the ocean.

I also worked on cleansing out some artifacts in my mind. Some resentments here and there.

The cleaning has allowed some of my perceptions of things to change as well I think. A year ago, I figured celebrate Passover, but I really wasn’t quite sure why other than the Bible says to from what I can tell. There are different perspectives on Passover, indeed, my own has grown and evolved. Around the world, gajillions of Christians are getting ready to celebrate Easter and it has barely crossed my mind. I remember it being so “taboo” to even say the word Passover last year. It freaks some Christians out for some reason,  particularly my wife. The perception of it though is what is interesting.

For many, Passover = Jewish. They can not get around it. It triggers an association in their mind that has been placed in there by a couple thousand years of tradition. It triggers a certain aversion. For others, it is welcomed. I have no idea why (actually i do, but am not going there just yet), but I had to be careful last year due to the taboo nature of the mental association. It would be sort of like naming one’s child Beezelebub or something equivalent. The kid could be the nicest kid on the planet, but would still go through hell for having a name like that.

I’ve also learned that the measure that we judge others will be brought right back on us. Fortunately, as I have grown spiritually, that part seems to come faster. I do something I shouldn’t. Whammo… get delivered a judgment.

Think of it like this. Once you become aware of Karma, or the law that says that as a man sows, so shall he reap, there is no longer any need to hide that spiritual law. It needs to remain hidden while you are yet asleep, otherwise your doing of right may not be “honest” but rather, for fear of retribution from the law.  If we are all but children on this planet, and God is trying to raise us up – he would probably want us to do things for the right reason – not because of fear of receiving the sometimes negative fruits of our own judgements.  I would want the same out of my children, so perhaps this applies to higher things as well. Thus the law of karma would have to remain hidden until we were ready to become aware of it. Basically, whenever you judge someone or are fail to act appropriately, those things come back on you so that you get to experience what it was like.

As part of karmic retribution, I was pretty silly about celebration of certain holidays about 2 years ago. Pardon the seemingly inflammatory expression, but I was “jewing” them up (did that trigger anything within you?), that is, becoming a bit too draconian and losing the forest through the trees. A year later I have learned that like Judas was to Jesus, we must kill our inner Jew – that part of us that wants to attach rules and regulations without bound to everything and without understanding why. There is a time for such things; however, as we grow we must come to understand why things are, how they work, etc. In as much as there are moral and other lessons provided by the Bible, it also provides a map of our minds, a map of the laws of how this places works, and how to have a good marriage, both with the Son of God, and your earthly wife. These things are under the surface and can not be seen by most at first is what I have learned.

Let’s try a small example though, the Beast discussed in Revelation is just as much a part of our own mind, but people prefer to focus on some external “prophetic” event or other such things rather than work on what is inside. I know, because I was one of them. Like Paul, walking around pointing fingers as described in the book of Acts, it seems that the first part of the journey is doing exactly that. At some point, the seeker’s eyes become opened to another source of light and they may begin to turn inward.

So while learning Karmic stuff, about two years ago I was getting judgemental on some of the holidays even Passover, but part of my heart felt like there was no reason to be judgemental about it, but celebrate it anyway and not get all snooty. I did as best I could with that. Since then,  I’ve learned is to celebrate other holidays with people because there is a higher law at work – that is – it would be better to be with your family, than to make a stink about Easter being pagan or whatever. The fact is, it IS Pagan – this is indisuputable. This is FACT, but a fact that many are not ready for due to the perceptions and mental filters they have grown up with, refusal to question things, to seek things out, etc. That includes me at points in my life.

Passover – the first full moon after the spring equinox! It is a halfway point between summer and winter and as such provide great opportunity and potential to become “reborn”. I don’t mean the silly self-declared emotional reborn like I myself did not even two years ago, but the level to which one becomes imbued, becomes like a virgin as pure as the driven snow – allowing for the Son of God to be born of you. I’ve found that the half-way point between day and night is an optimum point for mediation as it blends the female and male energies within us. In a similar level, so is Passover but it is like a big cosmic boost.

What does the word Passover trigger in you? Does it invoke fear? To me, it trigger Joy – a celebratory time for passing over into LIFE!

So celebrate your Easter eggs and your lent just like they did for ol’ Tammuz and the various sun gods across the planet. More power to you and those that you love, but why not celebrate Passover while you are at it and maybe one day, instead!

While I’m on the subject here is sort of a lay out of the things I prepared for Passover.

Curried Lentils with Spinach and Carrots




w Chocolate Dipping Sauce!


Here is the whole line up!


Had a little bit of “kosher” wine and 1 Guiness beer.

Preparing for Passover

Monday, April 6th, 2009

I am now on day 2 of a water fast. I may switch to juice tomorrow if I get sick or something, but right now I feel fine.

I’ve been taken a little bit of colon cleansing products and herbs each morning. I can’t wait to see what kind of dreams I have the morning of Passover.

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